even though the last part has been really sad

this summer has been the best i've ever had

i've been so happy i haven't even had time to

think about the bad stuff until now

summer makes garbage more obnoxious.

summer makes people more obnoxious.

today was like 95 degrees

and seriously, the city is trash.

( i feel pretty gross too)

Ok, why is it so hard to find Abu Ghraib videos on the internet? Aren't they a huge INTERNET phenomenon? My mentor keeps plying me to include some in my project and I have spent two days looking for some usable ones, and they are impossible to find! I wish I knew Arabic.

All of a sudden I'm the shortest member of my family. Everyone has outgrown me.

STREAMPAD

i can't figure out how to use streampad, but i REALLY want to post AQUARIAN DREAM - FANTASY. my current obsession. i'm at home for the weekend, seriously already gaining weight. this afternoon i baked a strawberry, blueberry, and yogurt/cottage cheese tart (red-blue-white fourth of july request). it was adapted from this recipe, from another serious obsession:

www.tartelette.blogspot.com

ben was supposed to come down and spend the weekend here too but his uncle died this week and so he's in princeton, nj. my little sister was so dissapointed. she likes my boyfriend more than me. driving here this morning my mom was saying how my little sister was telling her "ben is really good looking isn't he? i expected ----- [me] to date some geek-looking guy." hahaha ok, and then when i walked in the house today she greeted me by coming downstairs and was like "i thought your BOYFRIEND was coming." she looks around. nope. "mom made me clean." pouty face. soo cute.

now that i live alone i eat with my hands all the time. i feel like my mom.
i also don't wear a lot of clothes.
IT IS TOO HOT TO WEAR CLOTHES.

i am so hungry right now

so i let my mom meet my boyfriend when she came to richmond on friday. i told her i wanted her to meet a friend of mine, but as ben later put it she could totally tell when he stuck his sushi into my soy sauce at the restaurant. yeah, she could totally tell.
all she said about him in the car was "ben's so white" hahahahahahahahaha.
and then she invited me and him to come home for the weekend and go to the beach.

Wide Eyed

by Trinie Dalton.
amazing Amazing AMAZING!
I can't wait to read more of her stuff. It's nice to have time to read in the summer.

i don't own any shorts. why don't i own any shorts? i hate the summer season, it's too hot to wear clothes.

OMG

Sea, Sex, and Sun

Classes are over, it feels like summer! I want a cute ruffled bikini just like this and a vacation!














http://www.garancedore.fr/

twitter is really addicting

Visiting home for the weekend, eating a lot of food. When I was little, every time we bought our groceries from the asian market the lady there would always give us an extra treat. Usually these cute koala cookies. I am really craving some right now, although I just baked some coffee cake with dates and have eaten too many slices.



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Don't want to go outside

http://growing--up.blogspot.com/

"I don't recognize myself anymore. What made me like the others has been destroyed. I was like everybody else with flaws, perhaps of my own and of my world. You've made me different, taking me out of the natural order of things. While you were near me, I did not realize it. But I understand it now that you're leaving. And the awareness of losing you has become the awareness of my being different. What will become of me from now on? The future will be like living with a self that has nothing to do with me. Will I have to reach the bottom of this difference that you've shown me, that is my real and anguished nature? But even if I don't want to? Won't all this put me against everyone and against everything?"
-Pietro in Teorema

it's kind of sick how i use my creative writing class for supportive therapy. i can't help it, i like to write about emotional conflict and i draw inspiration from my own life. it's actually really soothing hearing 20 people telling you about how your ex is so cruel, treated you wrong, blah blah. and pointing things out such as the idealization of your "boyfriend" although in the story he is providing as much pain as the story's antagonists. and then reading and re-reading all the comments and trying to figure out who wrote them, and who wrote "you" instead of "the narrator." i worry sometimes that they will meet the people i write about. i should worry more that they know too much about me.

Stress

Too listless to write this paper. I feel strange. Not good at all.

It doesn't help that I can hear birds chirping outside already and I still have to shampoo my hair and do sit ups before I step outside and "start the day."
i didn't steal

I need to wash my hair

Hedi Slimane Diary

Work Fun Work

what I've been working on lately



Actually, done with that now! Then there was the French Film Festival, and now the James River Film Festival. Then exams, then summer internship!

life is so busy lately! i can't even be sad, even though my laptop was stolen last monday.