Saturday, August 15, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Friday, July 3, 2009
ben was supposed to come down and spend the weekend here too but his uncle died this week and so he's in princeton, nj. my little sister was so dissapointed. she likes my boyfriend more than me. driving here this morning my mom was saying how my little sister was telling her "ben is really good looking isn't he? i expected ----- [me] to date some geek-looking guy." hahaha ok, and then when i walked in the house today she greeted me by coming downstairs and was like "i thought your BOYFRIEND was coming." she looks around. nope. "mom made me clean." pouty face. soo cute.
Monday, June 29, 2009
all she said about him in the car was "ben's so white" hahahahahahahahaha.
and then she invited me and him to come home for the weekend and go to the beach.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Visiting home for the weekend, eating a lot of food. When I was little, every time we bought our groceries from the asian market the lady there would always give us an extra treat. Usually these cute koala cookies. I am really craving some right now, although I just baked some coffee cake with dates and have eaten too many slices.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
-Pietro in Teorema
Monday, April 20, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
/adj. suˈpaɪn; n. ˈsupaɪn/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [adj. soo-pahyn; n. soo-pahyn] Show IPA
1. lying on the back, face or front upward.
2. inactive, passive, or inert, esp. from indolence or indifference.
3. (of the hand) having the palm upward.
i have been lying in this position for the past two days. i'm so sickkkk
Friday, February 20, 2009
Colorgenics Number: 07125463
At this particular time, you are feeling that you are or were unjustly and undeservedly treated and/or betrayed in your hopes and dreams. You feel that everything is against you. But look on the bright side for you are, whether you believe it or not, a survivor.
You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.
In spite of the fact that you believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, it is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influenceand there is no-one to turn to or rely on. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you will have to make the best of things as they are.
There is considerable amount of stress present in your life at this time and this is perhaps due to some considerable mental and physical frustration. There are various physical needs that are necessary for your well-being but whatever the reasons - mostly of your own making - your needs are not being fulfilled. We wonder why? You are under the impression that nobody seems to care for you. This predicament is most uncomfortable and it is because of this that you are experiencing far more stress than you feel you can cope with. You need to find a soul mate - someone who truly understands you and whose standards are as high as your own. As matters stand you would like to break away from the vicious cycle that you find yourself entrapped but this is easier said than done. You refuse to compromise with your opinions and essentially you are unable to resolve the situation because you are continually postponing the making of the necessary decision. You are stubborn but this should be no deterrent experiencing a happy life.
You feel worn out - you have no energy and your depleted vitality has created intolerance for any further stimulation. You feel inadequate and this subjects you to agitation, irritation and acute distress from which you try to escape by refusing further direct participation. You have become very wary and cautious but you have an inner strength. You have that determination to get your own way and succeed in the end.
Take the quiz yourself!
Thursday, February 19, 2009
i'm on a diet?
I guess writing a paper overrides any other status quo. like dieting, or socializing, or seeing sunlight.
DID I REALLY EAT ALL THAT?
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
as i tried reading faster, i slowed down after the neurological relations part, when the chapter morphs into mood and affect. the definition of emotion provided in this book really ground my process to a halt, as much as i wanted to get out of the library.
basically, the book explained emotion as an "action tendency"
then gave the longer definition as "a pattern of action elicited by an external event and a feeling state, accompanied by a characteristic physiological response."
blah blah ignore the second part unless you're a student of psychology then maybe it'll come in handy, i just thought that might clarify the action part of an emotion for you because i really had to think about it. or maybe i was really jaded and dumb from sitting in a cubicle. voluntarily. but an emotion as an "action tendency" really caught me, and now i can't stop thinking about it in any other way.
Monday, February 16, 2009
I don't know if this is good or bad.
I feel I am acting out typical stereotypes - melodramatic, emotional, mood swings, WEIRDNESS, binge eating.
I want to watch the Holiday.
[ignore stupid background video, ignore stupid impulses]
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
I Do Not Love You Except Because I Love You
I do not love you except because I love you;
I go from loving to not loving you,
From waiting to not waiting for you
My heart moves from cold to fire.
I love you only because it's you the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating you
Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.
Maybe January light will consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true calm.
In this part of the story I am the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.
Friday, January 2, 2009
I love you Frank. You will always be my favorite. And when I say I hate boys (I am saying it right now because it it 4:26 AM and therefore too late for him to call) you know you are excluded from that sentiment. Forever.
(Video of Frank O'Hara reading his poem "Having a Coke With You")
Read now: "The Whores of Mensa" by Woody Allen